I found the same. It's amazing how deep Vic's morbid theology runs. So many scripture passages are just morbid when viewed through the BCF worldview. The good news of the gospel seems to be completely missing!! I didn't realise just how morbid my worldview had become. Reading the Bible with a fresh set of eyes, and WOW, I'm realising just how GOOD God is.However over time we realised that the small “g” god we had been worshipping at the fellowship was not the God of love, forgiveness, reconcilation new life etc. By going back and reading the New Testament and praying without reference to Vic Halls dreadful pamphlets and books, we were finally able to see the true God of the Bible.
For those stuck in xCF. There is good news... Jesus Loves you!