Sonseekers
Posted: Tue Jun 13, 2023 8:43 am
Dear Friends,
I want to share my experience of being indoctrinated from birth. Since becoming a parent myself I carry a great sadness for the innocent children who have to go through the Sonseeker program. Sonseeker is the CF version of Sunday School which is a curriculum Vic has written with his twisted theology for children. The program presents God as a very angry person like being who wants to punish you for every time you do something wrong. It walks through the bible but always circles back to the idea God is a cruel task master waiting to punish you or the idea you God determines if you are in the in crowd (predestined) or not. You are left forever questioning if you are loved and accepted. Doesn't matter what you do if God has predestined you to be on the outer then tough luck.
It breaks my heart now as I think about my relationship with my child and the love we have, that there are still children who are terrified because they believe that 'god' is just waiting to rain hell fire down on them.
Being born into the fellowship I went through the program 6 times before I became a teenager and went into high school: the break down is as follows
2-3 year olds
3-4 year olds
5-6 year olds
7-8 year olds
9-10 year olds
11-12 year olds
I am sorry for any parents who read this and feel a tremendous amount of guilt for subjecting their children to this. My advice is to appoligise to them and provide whatever support they need to heal.
For people who also had this inflicted upon them, be kind to yourself as you heal. Promise yourself that if you have children that you will never subject them to the same abuse that was inflicted upon you.
I have made the choice to allow my parents access to their grandchild despite still being in the CF. It has not been a free pass for them. I set very strong boundaries and to their credit they have respected them. But I understand the difficulty of this decision for parents wanting to protect their own children.
I want to share my experience of being indoctrinated from birth. Since becoming a parent myself I carry a great sadness for the innocent children who have to go through the Sonseeker program. Sonseeker is the CF version of Sunday School which is a curriculum Vic has written with his twisted theology for children. The program presents God as a very angry person like being who wants to punish you for every time you do something wrong. It walks through the bible but always circles back to the idea God is a cruel task master waiting to punish you or the idea you God determines if you are in the in crowd (predestined) or not. You are left forever questioning if you are loved and accepted. Doesn't matter what you do if God has predestined you to be on the outer then tough luck.
It breaks my heart now as I think about my relationship with my child and the love we have, that there are still children who are terrified because they believe that 'god' is just waiting to rain hell fire down on them.
Being born into the fellowship I went through the program 6 times before I became a teenager and went into high school: the break down is as follows
2-3 year olds
3-4 year olds
5-6 year olds
7-8 year olds
9-10 year olds
11-12 year olds
I am sorry for any parents who read this and feel a tremendous amount of guilt for subjecting their children to this. My advice is to appoligise to them and provide whatever support they need to heal.
For people who also had this inflicted upon them, be kind to yourself as you heal. Promise yourself that if you have children that you will never subject them to the same abuse that was inflicted upon you.
I have made the choice to allow my parents access to their grandchild despite still being in the CF. It has not been a free pass for them. I set very strong boundaries and to their credit they have respected them. But I understand the difficulty of this decision for parents wanting to protect their own children.