ongoing rejection
Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2023 7:39 am
Friends,
I am writing this as I don’t know where else to really turn. The price of leaving CF is high. It is drilled into us before we even consider leaving. When we do leave excommunication is swift and sharp leaving us without our families, friends and communities. You are made and example of as the big stick of condemnation is swung in your direction, warning others not to follow in your folly.
For some they can rebuild a relationship with their family again, though it be quite shallow and the giant pink elephant playing a symphony in the room is ignored.
I have many admissions to mental health hospitals since the fallout from CF. During which I processed some of my feelings of hurt, betrayal, anger, sadness, grief over my treatment and loss of family (the pain is never gone, just manageable). I am not up to speed on the current word but I am hearing that it’s very much gone down the “don’t touch the unclean” route again, which they claim is anyone not in CF but especially those of us who leave.
In recent weeks I have been given another blow from CF. I have worked very hard to allow my family back into my life. IN recent weeks my family have decided to move away from me into an area highly populated with CF folk. I feel it is a massive slap in the face and all the feelings of rejection have come back up. It is just another reminder of where the priority lies.
How do others deal with this? The feeling of making small gains only to have it ripped away again. How do you find hope that there can be any sort restoration?
Thank you in advance
I am writing this as I don’t know where else to really turn. The price of leaving CF is high. It is drilled into us before we even consider leaving. When we do leave excommunication is swift and sharp leaving us without our families, friends and communities. You are made and example of as the big stick of condemnation is swung in your direction, warning others not to follow in your folly.
For some they can rebuild a relationship with their family again, though it be quite shallow and the giant pink elephant playing a symphony in the room is ignored.
I have many admissions to mental health hospitals since the fallout from CF. During which I processed some of my feelings of hurt, betrayal, anger, sadness, grief over my treatment and loss of family (the pain is never gone, just manageable). I am not up to speed on the current word but I am hearing that it’s very much gone down the “don’t touch the unclean” route again, which they claim is anyone not in CF but especially those of us who leave.
In recent weeks I have been given another blow from CF. I have worked very hard to allow my family back into my life. IN recent weeks my family have decided to move away from me into an area highly populated with CF folk. I feel it is a massive slap in the face and all the feelings of rejection have come back up. It is just another reminder of where the priority lies.
How do others deal with this? The feeling of making small gains only to have it ripped away again. How do you find hope that there can be any sort restoration?
Thank you in advance